19th May- Mexico City
Letty and Leon's apartment
Letty's POV
I don't know how it started; one minute we were standing in the kitchen and the next thing I knew we were in the lounge room floor quickly getting drunk. However it happened I found myself not caring as I threw one back after the other.
"He's a bastard. He couldn't make it work with me but he can with her." I voiced bitterly as Leon downed the rest of his drink.
"He didn't know what he had Let." He spoke and I found myself muttering 'ain't that the truth' in agreement.
"He just didn't want me anymore." I whispered out loud for the first had been a conclusion I had come to but I had never voiced it until now. I guess it took a bit of liquid courage to be able to confront the truth. I took another large swig of my beer and tilted my head back as it rested on the edge of the coffee table. I noted Leon pause mid drink as he caught my words.
"Then it was his loss. He lost you and he lost that little girl in there, you both deserve better." He said truthfully and my heart gave a little flutter at his words.
"Why can't all men be like you Leon?" I asked sadly catching him in surprise as he thought it over for a moment before shrugging.
"I'm not perfect Let." I smiled sadly.
"You're close enough." I spoke truthfully as we fell into silence.
Few hours later
I giggled drunkenly as I pointed at Leon. I had no idea how many I had had and I knew come morning I would be paying for it but I needed this. I needed this after those fucked up pictures of him and her.
"You remember dat time I punched you?" I asked slurring my words slightly as I looked across at him. We had spread out now; his back was to the lounge, his legs out in front of him and mine was back against the coffee table with my legs outstretched beside his.
"Dat hurt like a bitch." He mumbled as we laughed loudly. I caught myself as I remembered that Ava was asleep and I put my finger to my lips.
"Shhh shhh, we'll wake Ava up." I giggled setting aside my drink, curling my legs underneath me as I started crawling towards him. He nodded at me slowly trying to understand what I was saying.
"Dat would be bad, cos den the fun has to stop." He grinned as I stopped in front of him. I nodded still laughing quietly as we stared at one another. My stomach gave another little flutter as I found myself looking at his lips. The air between us was sizzling as I leant further into him and he met me half way.
I kissed Leon hurriedly and passionately. Deep down I knew I shouldn't but I couldn't pull myself away. I needed this, I needed a release. I had sworn to myself I would never be with another person but kissing and clinging to Leon I let that promise fade away for just tonight.
Feeling his hands grip my hips harder I pulled myself into his lap and straddled him. He kissed me more urgently as he pulled me closer; my hands going straight to his hair as I tugged it roughly. He groaned at my actions, letting his own hands wander up my body until his hand tangled into my hair holding my lips to his.
"We shouldn't." He muttered as I broke away trailing kisses down his neck. I let my teeth scrape against his skin and his grip tightened. I smirked as he seemed to lose focus for a second.
"Why?" I whispered in his ear.
"I…I made a promise." He moaned as I bit down.
"I'm not his anymore." I said again. Even to my drunken ears I could hear the sadness that seeped through those few words. Those words seemed to do the trick though because he pulled me back to him instantly and devoured my mouth furiously.
Gripping his shirt tightly in my hands I swiftly pulled it off and mine soon joined his somewhere on the floor. Before long we moved from our sitting position on the floor to the lounge. I dug my nails into his shoulders as we resumed kissing once settle again. The alcohol flowing in my veins and my own need had now taken over. Every move we made was clumsy, neither of us in sync with one another but we managed to somehow rid the rest of our clothing without getting hurt.
I wasted no time as I sunk down on him suddenly. His grip tightened and his teeth bit into my shoulder as he groaned loudly. I let out a low moan as I moved and he mirrored it as we began our rhythm. We were panting and moaning as I slammed down on top of him repeatedly with his help. I could feel the end nearing and I knew I wasn't going to last much longer.
"Fuck." He growled as he came and I cried out my own release just seconds later, almost calling out Dom's name. I collapsed onto Leon's chest heavily as I tried to get my jumbled thoughts back into order. Shaking I closed my eyes tightly as I tried to rid Dom's face from my mind but it wasn't any use. His image was burned into my mind and I knew, even in my drunken state, it was a sign of guilt.
20th May- Mexico City
Letty and Leon's apartment
I groaned as I woke, my head was pounding, a voice was all too loud in my ear and there was a loud crying sound somewhere near. I held my head as I looked around my surroundings. I groaned as I realized where I was or better yet who I was on top of.
"Shit." I muttered quietly as I took in all the empty beer bottles before I stood, searching for my clothes. I paid Leon no attention as I dressed quickly and made my top Ava, trying not to stumble. She was inconsolable as I reached her and I spent a good ten minutes rocking her gently as I tried to stop her head was pounding and felt like it was going to split in two but I tried to pay it no mind as I concentrated on my little girl. I didn't know how long she had been crying but all I hoped was that it hadn't been all night. Settling her slightly I placed her on the change table and changed her before picking her up holding her close once more. She was nuzzling into my breast, clearly hungry and in need of comfort. I felt awful about not being able to offer her what she needed, I had been selfish and now my daughter missed out. Sighing I held her higher on my shoulder as I left the room and walked into the kitchen.
Leon was leaning against the counter when I walked in looking worse for wear and I hadno doubt I looked very much the same. He pushed my coffee towards me and I gave him a small smile in thanks.
"Have we got advil?" I asked quietly and he nodded.
"Yeah in here somewhere I think." He answered waving a hand to the cupboards.
"Can you take her? I have to make her a bottle, I can't breastfeed her." I muttered and he nodded taking Ava as she continued to calm down from her earlier crying. I tried not to watch but I couldn't help it as I saw him wipe the tears that were falling from her eyes as she pouted. I smiled slightly as he leaned in and gave her cheek a kiss.
"God what did we drink last night?" I asked myself as I went about making Ava's bottle.
"I don't remember, but whatever it was we drunk a lot of it." He spoke as he went and sat down at the table with Ava in his lap. Silence had fallen over us and I knew the next couple of days were going to be awkward.
"Let…" He started after a huge gap of silence.
"Yeah?" I asked ignoring his gaze as I took Ava back to feed.
"We're going to have to talk about it sometime." He whispered and I knew he was right but it wasn't somewhere I wanted to go just yet. From the bits I had pieced together of last night, I still felt guilty. I wasn't ready to discuss what had happened or anything about Dom and that woman.
"Leon, we were drunk; let's just leave it at that. It won't happen again." I spoke hoping he would know to leave it alone.
"Okay. Are we good then? Can we forget about it?" He asked finally and I sagged in relief, pleased he wasn't going to force the issue.
"Yeah Le we're good. Let's just forget about it okay?" I asked and he nodded. I smiled slightly at him as I fed Ava before silence fell back over us once more.
Letty and Leon's apartment
Letty's POV
I don't know how it started; one minute we were standing in the kitchen and the next thing I knew we were in the lounge room floor quickly getting drunk. However it happened I found myself not caring as I threw one back after the other.
"He's a bastard. He couldn't make it work with me but he can with her." I voiced bitterly as Leon downed the rest of his drink.
"He didn't know what he had Let." He spoke and I found myself muttering 'ain't that the truth' in agreement.
"He just didn't want me anymore." I whispered out loud for the first had been a conclusion I had come to but I had never voiced it until now. I guess it took a bit of liquid courage to be able to confront the truth. I took another large swig of my beer and tilted my head back as it rested on the edge of the coffee table. I noted Leon pause mid drink as he caught my words.
"Then it was his loss. He lost you and he lost that little girl in there, you both deserve better." He said truthfully and my heart gave a little flutter at his words.
"Why can't all men be like you Leon?" I asked sadly catching him in surprise as he thought it over for a moment before shrugging.
"I'm not perfect Let." I smiled sadly.
"You're close enough." I spoke truthfully as we fell into silence.
Few hours later
I giggled drunkenly as I pointed at Leon. I had no idea how many I had had and I knew come morning I would be paying for it but I needed this. I needed this after those fucked up pictures of him and her.
"You remember dat time I punched you?" I asked slurring my words slightly as I looked across at him. We had spread out now; his back was to the lounge, his legs out in front of him and mine was back against the coffee table with my legs outstretched beside his.
"Dat hurt like a bitch." He mumbled as we laughed loudly. I caught myself as I remembered that Ava was asleep and I put my finger to my lips.
"Shhh shhh, we'll wake Ava up." I giggled setting aside my drink, curling my legs underneath me as I started crawling towards him. He nodded at me slowly trying to understand what I was saying.
"Dat would be bad, cos den the fun has to stop." He grinned as I stopped in front of him. I nodded still laughing quietly as we stared at one another. My stomach gave another little flutter as I found myself looking at his lips. The air between us was sizzling as I leant further into him and he met me half way.
I kissed Leon hurriedly and passionately. Deep down I knew I shouldn't but I couldn't pull myself away. I needed this, I needed a release. I had sworn to myself I would never be with another person but kissing and clinging to Leon I let that promise fade away for just tonight.
Feeling his hands grip my hips harder I pulled myself into his lap and straddled him. He kissed me more urgently as he pulled me closer; my hands going straight to his hair as I tugged it roughly. He groaned at my actions, letting his own hands wander up my body until his hand tangled into my hair holding my lips to his.
"We shouldn't." He muttered as I broke away trailing kisses down his neck. I let my teeth scrape against his skin and his grip tightened. I smirked as he seemed to lose focus for a second.
"Why?" I whispered in his ear.
"I…I made a promise." He moaned as I bit down.
"I'm not his anymore." I said again. Even to my drunken ears I could hear the sadness that seeped through those few words. Those words seemed to do the trick though because he pulled me back to him instantly and devoured my mouth furiously.
Gripping his shirt tightly in my hands I swiftly pulled it off and mine soon joined his somewhere on the floor. Before long we moved from our sitting position on the floor to the lounge. I dug my nails into his shoulders as we resumed kissing once settle again. The alcohol flowing in my veins and my own need had now taken over. Every move we made was clumsy, neither of us in sync with one another but we managed to somehow rid the rest of our clothing without getting hurt.
I wasted no time as I sunk down on him suddenly. His grip tightened and his teeth bit into my shoulder as he groaned loudly. I let out a low moan as I moved and he mirrored it as we began our rhythm. We were panting and moaning as I slammed down on top of him repeatedly with his help. I could feel the end nearing and I knew I wasn't going to last much longer.
"Fuck." He growled as he came and I cried out my own release just seconds later, almost calling out Dom's name. I collapsed onto Leon's chest heavily as I tried to get my jumbled thoughts back into order. Shaking I closed my eyes tightly as I tried to rid Dom's face from my mind but it wasn't any use. His image was burned into my mind and I knew, even in my drunken state, it was a sign of guilt.
20th May- Mexico City
Letty and Leon's apartment
I groaned as I woke, my head was pounding, a voice was all too loud in my ear and there was a loud crying sound somewhere near. I held my head as I looked around my surroundings. I groaned as I realized where I was or better yet who I was on top of.
"Shit." I muttered quietly as I took in all the empty beer bottles before I stood, searching for my clothes. I paid Leon no attention as I dressed quickly and made my top Ava, trying not to stumble. She was inconsolable as I reached her and I spent a good ten minutes rocking her gently as I tried to stop her head was pounding and felt like it was going to split in two but I tried to pay it no mind as I concentrated on my little girl. I didn't know how long she had been crying but all I hoped was that it hadn't been all night. Settling her slightly I placed her on the change table and changed her before picking her up holding her close once more. She was nuzzling into my breast, clearly hungry and in need of comfort. I felt awful about not being able to offer her what she needed, I had been selfish and now my daughter missed out. Sighing I held her higher on my shoulder as I left the room and walked into the kitchen.
Leon was leaning against the counter when I walked in looking worse for wear and I hadno doubt I looked very much the same. He pushed my coffee towards me and I gave him a small smile in thanks.
"Have we got advil?" I asked quietly and he nodded.
"Yeah in here somewhere I think." He answered waving a hand to the cupboards.
"Can you take her? I have to make her a bottle, I can't breastfeed her." I muttered and he nodded taking Ava as she continued to calm down from her earlier crying. I tried not to watch but I couldn't help it as I saw him wipe the tears that were falling from her eyes as she pouted. I smiled slightly as he leaned in and gave her cheek a kiss.
"God what did we drink last night?" I asked myself as I went about making Ava's bottle.
"I don't remember, but whatever it was we drunk a lot of it." He spoke as he went and sat down at the table with Ava in his lap. Silence had fallen over us and I knew the next couple of days were going to be awkward.
"Let…" He started after a huge gap of silence.
"Yeah?" I asked ignoring his gaze as I took Ava back to feed.
"We're going to have to talk about it sometime." He whispered and I knew he was right but it wasn't somewhere I wanted to go just yet. From the bits I had pieced together of last night, I still felt guilty. I wasn't ready to discuss what had happened or anything about Dom and that woman.
"Leon, we were drunk; let's just leave it at that. It won't happen again." I spoke hoping he would know to leave it alone.
"Okay. Are we good then? Can we forget about it?" He asked finally and I sagged in relief, pleased he wasn't going to force the issue.
"Yeah Le we're good. Let's just forget about it okay?" I asked and he nodded. I smiled slightly at him as I fed Ava before silence fell back over us once more.