Letty's POV
I was so mad, seething probably would have been a better word. Mum and I had gone to the jail after school and mum had spent the first fifteen minutes with us then left us alone. I had only seen him four days ago but already I could see the difference. You could tell he hadn't slept much and he hadn't even smiled when we had sat down.
"Are you okay?" I asked quietly.
"About as good as I can get in here." I frowned at his cold tone.
"Are you having trouble?" I asked quietly listening as he sighed heavily.
"No, Let we need to talk." He sighed looking at me briefly before looking away. My stomach dropped at his words.
"Have I done something wrong?" I asked timidly.
"No… I just… we can't be together Let. You deserve more than I can give you right now. It's not fair to ask you to wait for me."
"You're not asking me to. I want to." I said quickly.
"You know what I mean. You're not going to put your whole life on hold and wait for me."
"I wouldn't be." I whispered softly reaching out for him but he withdrew from my reach leaving me stunned. I swallowed nervously.
"Dom please, don't do this. I can't see myself with anyone but you." I said softly.
"Letty I can't do this from in here. I don't want you, or Mia, seeing me in here. I don't want you to visit anymore." I sat speechless as he stared evenly at me.
"I'll still come." I said defiantly.
"I'll refuse to see you." he snapped and I slumped at his words.
"So that's it you just want to break up with me? and to top it off you won't even let me see you?" I asked.
"Yes, it's for the best." I blinked back the tears that were threatening to spill over and he looked away as he noticed.
"Please don't do this. Dom I love you, you said you loved me." I whispered.
"I…I lied. I said it in a weak moment." I sat in shock staring at him as he turned back to me. His face was completely void of emotion it was just cold and uncaring.
"I don't believe you." I said shakily but in truth I did half believe him. There had always been fear in the back of my mind wondering if this was all too good to be true. How many times had the thought of this being a joke slipped into my mind. I had given him what he had wanted and now he was going to end it. It was a nightmare come true.
"Well believe it."
"Look me in the eye and say it and I will." I said quietly my heart beating fast in my chest. I was surprised when he stared back at me, his eyes still cold and unforgiving.
"I don't love you. I don't want to see you and I don't want to be with you." My breath caught in my throat as he said the whole thing while staring at me. I closed my eyes and dipped my head looking away from his gaze.
"So that's it. I gave you want you wanted and now you're done with me?" I whispered but I didn't raise my head to look at him.
"… yes." I opened my eyes and turned to look at him once and nodded slowly.
"Then I won't bother you again." I said as I stood.
"Let wait…"
"What? Have you not rubbed it in enough?" I asked with an attitude. It was the only way I could stop my tears from falling.
"I'm sorry."
"Not as much as I am." I said tearfully as I walked away. I didn't look back at him as I made my way to where mum was waiting she looked at me worriedly as I walked straight past her. The entire car ride I stayed silent barely holding it together. I refused to meet mum's glances or answer her questions, I just stayed silent.
Now in my room at home I was mad as hell and the tears that were streaming down my face were angry ones. How could he have done this to me? He had played me and I had fallen for it, hard. He had probably had a good old laugh about it too, with Vince no doubt. I'm sure he would have been in on it.
Dom's POV
I sat in my cell now on my own since my cellmate had been moved thanks to Maria and the lawyer. I had my head in my hands as I replayed her reaction over and over again in my head. I had tried to explain it at first but then when she started resisting I knew what I had to do. I was heartbroken she had believed my lies so easily. Did she really have that much doubt about us? I had lied to her, hoping to stop her from putting up a fight and it had worked but at a cost. I had broken not only her heart but mine in the process. I had made her believe I had played her just for sex and that was far from the case.
I loved her with every fiber of my being just like I had made her believe before all this shit went down. I had lied to protect her, I didn't want her to see me like this and I didn't want her here visiting. This was the only way to make sure she had a somewhat normal life for the next two to three years.
I let my tears fall freely as I struggled with the guilt that was eating me up. Crying silently I knew it would be a long time before I heard from her again. I would write to her every week as I would to Mia but I knew I wouldn't hear back from her, at least not for a long time. I had lost her, with the possibility of more than likely for good. By the time I got out she would have moved on and I would be the one waiting on the sidelines, waiting to prove myself to her again. And the sad truth was I had no one to blame but myself. I had done this for her, to give her a chance at normal life. I could only hope a part of her would realize I was lying and would wait for me. At this point though, that didn't seem likely.
I was so mad, seething probably would have been a better word. Mum and I had gone to the jail after school and mum had spent the first fifteen minutes with us then left us alone. I had only seen him four days ago but already I could see the difference. You could tell he hadn't slept much and he hadn't even smiled when we had sat down.
"Are you okay?" I asked quietly.
"About as good as I can get in here." I frowned at his cold tone.
"Are you having trouble?" I asked quietly listening as he sighed heavily.
"No, Let we need to talk." He sighed looking at me briefly before looking away. My stomach dropped at his words.
"Have I done something wrong?" I asked timidly.
"No… I just… we can't be together Let. You deserve more than I can give you right now. It's not fair to ask you to wait for me."
"You're not asking me to. I want to." I said quickly.
"You know what I mean. You're not going to put your whole life on hold and wait for me."
"I wouldn't be." I whispered softly reaching out for him but he withdrew from my reach leaving me stunned. I swallowed nervously.
"Dom please, don't do this. I can't see myself with anyone but you." I said softly.
"Letty I can't do this from in here. I don't want you, or Mia, seeing me in here. I don't want you to visit anymore." I sat speechless as he stared evenly at me.
"I'll still come." I said defiantly.
"I'll refuse to see you." he snapped and I slumped at his words.
"So that's it you just want to break up with me? and to top it off you won't even let me see you?" I asked.
"Yes, it's for the best." I blinked back the tears that were threatening to spill over and he looked away as he noticed.
"Please don't do this. Dom I love you, you said you loved me." I whispered.
"I…I lied. I said it in a weak moment." I sat in shock staring at him as he turned back to me. His face was completely void of emotion it was just cold and uncaring.
"I don't believe you." I said shakily but in truth I did half believe him. There had always been fear in the back of my mind wondering if this was all too good to be true. How many times had the thought of this being a joke slipped into my mind. I had given him what he had wanted and now he was going to end it. It was a nightmare come true.
"Well believe it."
"Look me in the eye and say it and I will." I said quietly my heart beating fast in my chest. I was surprised when he stared back at me, his eyes still cold and unforgiving.
"I don't love you. I don't want to see you and I don't want to be with you." My breath caught in my throat as he said the whole thing while staring at me. I closed my eyes and dipped my head looking away from his gaze.
"So that's it. I gave you want you wanted and now you're done with me?" I whispered but I didn't raise my head to look at him.
"… yes." I opened my eyes and turned to look at him once and nodded slowly.
"Then I won't bother you again." I said as I stood.
"Let wait…"
"What? Have you not rubbed it in enough?" I asked with an attitude. It was the only way I could stop my tears from falling.
"I'm sorry."
"Not as much as I am." I said tearfully as I walked away. I didn't look back at him as I made my way to where mum was waiting she looked at me worriedly as I walked straight past her. The entire car ride I stayed silent barely holding it together. I refused to meet mum's glances or answer her questions, I just stayed silent.
Now in my room at home I was mad as hell and the tears that were streaming down my face were angry ones. How could he have done this to me? He had played me and I had fallen for it, hard. He had probably had a good old laugh about it too, with Vince no doubt. I'm sure he would have been in on it.
Dom's POV
I sat in my cell now on my own since my cellmate had been moved thanks to Maria and the lawyer. I had my head in my hands as I replayed her reaction over and over again in my head. I had tried to explain it at first but then when she started resisting I knew what I had to do. I was heartbroken she had believed my lies so easily. Did she really have that much doubt about us? I had lied to her, hoping to stop her from putting up a fight and it had worked but at a cost. I had broken not only her heart but mine in the process. I had made her believe I had played her just for sex and that was far from the case.
I loved her with every fiber of my being just like I had made her believe before all this shit went down. I had lied to protect her, I didn't want her to see me like this and I didn't want her here visiting. This was the only way to make sure she had a somewhat normal life for the next two to three years.
I let my tears fall freely as I struggled with the guilt that was eating me up. Crying silently I knew it would be a long time before I heard from her again. I would write to her every week as I would to Mia but I knew I wouldn't hear back from her, at least not for a long time. I had lost her, with the possibility of more than likely for good. By the time I got out she would have moved on and I would be the one waiting on the sidelines, waiting to prove myself to her again. And the sad truth was I had no one to blame but myself. I had done this for her, to give her a chance at normal life. I could only hope a part of her would realize I was lying and would wait for me. At this point though, that didn't seem likely.