24th May- Mexico City
Letty and Leon's apartment
Leon's POV
I stared up at the ceiling as I lay in bed. The room was bathed in darkness given the late hour of the night or early morning depending on which way you looked at it. I couldn't yet sleep despite the time, my mind being plagued with the same memory over and over again since the Friday night.
As I had expected the last week had been nothing less than awkward. Letty and I had tried to stay out of each other's way as much as possible but it was hard with Ava being caught in the middle.
Now being four and a half months old she was beginning to become a handful. Having learnt to roll a just over a week ago and now you had to constantly watch her. In a blink of an eye she could get from one side of the room to the other, grabbing whatever was in her arms reach. It was a full time job just watching her.
I stilled as I thought I heard a noise from down the hall but after a few minutes of listening I heard nothing so I relaxed back into the bed passing it off as nothing. I readjusted myself and closed my eyes willing sleep to take me. Just when I thought I was good to fall asleep, I heard another noise just outside my door and this time I knew I wasn't hearing things. I sat up and squinted in the dark as my door opened, all I could make out was a silhouette though as it moved closer to me. Reaching out I turned on the bedside lamp and I watched as the person shielded their eyes and squinted.
"God Leon." Letty groaned as she got blinded.
"Sorry, what are you doing?" I asked as she blinked slightly getting used to the light. I heard her sigh as she sat at the end of the bed.
"I couldn't sleep." she said tiredly and I nodded.
"Yeah I know that feeling." I said as I moved over in the bed, making space for her to join me. She did so immediately, turning off the light at the same time. I settled once more as I lay still, trying to keep the space between us so that we weren't touching.
The silence that fell should have been one of peace but it wasn't. The tension in the air was suffocating and I was more awake than ever now. I felt her roll over, her hand brushing against mine aswe both stilled, our bodies filled with sudden tension. Truth be told had this been two weeks ago it would have been normal and not a second thought would have been given to it, but now things had changed. In reality it was what I had always wanted to happen but not under these circumstances. Since Saturday morning guilt had been eating me alive, I had broken a promise. Had the situation been different I wouldn't have felt so guilty but it was what it was; even though I was pissed as hell at him I couldn't help but think of Dom.
My thought chain was broken as I suddenly felt a set of lips on mine. I made a noise of surprise as Letty got more insistent but I recovered, pushing her back a little. I stared up into what I assumed was her face since I couldn't exactly see.
"Let?" I whispered. She said nothing as I waited to see what she was going to do. I felt her move, thinking that she was moving away but I was surprised when she straddled me.
"Letty wha- Mmm." I was surprised when I felt her lips on mine again, this time more urgently then before. I tried to do the right thing, I tried to move away but with no alcohol in my system this time around I found it harder. Her lips were soft as they coaxed mine into action. With the last bit of will power I had I tried once again to break free but she must have sensed it and moved with me. I groaned as she bit my lip, giving her the access she wanted. If I thought her lips were heaven I was lost when her tongue slid against mine.
31st May- Mexico City
Letty and Leon's apartment
I didn't know what to think as the week continued very much the same. For the first couple of nights I had tried to stay strong but after a few minutes I couldn't help but give into her advances. She was like a drug.
There had been some nights where she didn't come to me. In my head I knew that was a good thing, but eventually I cracked and went to her first. The mornings were always the same though, she left before I woke or vice versa. It was clear she didn't want to talk about what was happening and I went along with it at first, but now I needed to know.
I walked into the kitchen seeing her at the counter making our dinner. I watched as she tensed but didn't turn to me. Walking up behind her I placed my hands on hers, stilling her from what she was doing and turned her to face me.
"Letty what are we doing?" I whispered as I looked down at her.
"I… I don't know." I could hear the uncertainty in her voice as I licked my lips; I could still taste her.
"We can't continue doing this Let." I struggled to say. My heart knew it was the right thing to do but my head and body were being selfish.
"Why? Why not?"
"Because of Dom." I said truthfully and she shook her head, closing her eyes at his name.
"Don't." She pleaded as she tried to move away but I held her fast.
"Letty we both know it's true."
"Le please, don't. I don't want anything to do with him." She ground out and I nodded.
"And I believe you but he's still hanging over our heads Let, he always will be. Whether you like it or not you'll always be his."
"You think I don't know that? Sometimes I wish I hadn't gotten my memories back, I wish I could forget about him. Those pictures Leon… they're burned into my memory and I can't forget them." She whispered as she started tearing up.
"If you hadn't gotten them back you wouldn't remember any of them. Vince, Jesse, you're mum, Tony… me." I said and she nodded.
"I know… I know. I just want to forget Le. You make me feel safe and you help me forget." She said truthfully as she looked up at me and my heart ached. I couldn't blame her, I suspected that's what the answer was going to be but it didn't make it hurt any less.
"All I want to do is help and protect you and Ava Letty." I said honestly.
"You do. I know it's selfish and unfair to ask, but…" She paused and took a deep breath and I nodded.
"I get it, I'll do whatever you need me to do. We both have our selfish reasons." I added quietly and she looked up at me sadly.
"I'm sorry."
"Don't be." I said as I leaned and kissed her cheek gently.
Letty and Leon's apartment
Leon's POV
I stared up at the ceiling as I lay in bed. The room was bathed in darkness given the late hour of the night or early morning depending on which way you looked at it. I couldn't yet sleep despite the time, my mind being plagued with the same memory over and over again since the Friday night.
As I had expected the last week had been nothing less than awkward. Letty and I had tried to stay out of each other's way as much as possible but it was hard with Ava being caught in the middle.
Now being four and a half months old she was beginning to become a handful. Having learnt to roll a just over a week ago and now you had to constantly watch her. In a blink of an eye she could get from one side of the room to the other, grabbing whatever was in her arms reach. It was a full time job just watching her.
I stilled as I thought I heard a noise from down the hall but after a few minutes of listening I heard nothing so I relaxed back into the bed passing it off as nothing. I readjusted myself and closed my eyes willing sleep to take me. Just when I thought I was good to fall asleep, I heard another noise just outside my door and this time I knew I wasn't hearing things. I sat up and squinted in the dark as my door opened, all I could make out was a silhouette though as it moved closer to me. Reaching out I turned on the bedside lamp and I watched as the person shielded their eyes and squinted.
"God Leon." Letty groaned as she got blinded.
"Sorry, what are you doing?" I asked as she blinked slightly getting used to the light. I heard her sigh as she sat at the end of the bed.
"I couldn't sleep." she said tiredly and I nodded.
"Yeah I know that feeling." I said as I moved over in the bed, making space for her to join me. She did so immediately, turning off the light at the same time. I settled once more as I lay still, trying to keep the space between us so that we weren't touching.
The silence that fell should have been one of peace but it wasn't. The tension in the air was suffocating and I was more awake than ever now. I felt her roll over, her hand brushing against mine aswe both stilled, our bodies filled with sudden tension. Truth be told had this been two weeks ago it would have been normal and not a second thought would have been given to it, but now things had changed. In reality it was what I had always wanted to happen but not under these circumstances. Since Saturday morning guilt had been eating me alive, I had broken a promise. Had the situation been different I wouldn't have felt so guilty but it was what it was; even though I was pissed as hell at him I couldn't help but think of Dom.
My thought chain was broken as I suddenly felt a set of lips on mine. I made a noise of surprise as Letty got more insistent but I recovered, pushing her back a little. I stared up into what I assumed was her face since I couldn't exactly see.
"Let?" I whispered. She said nothing as I waited to see what she was going to do. I felt her move, thinking that she was moving away but I was surprised when she straddled me.
"Letty wha- Mmm." I was surprised when I felt her lips on mine again, this time more urgently then before. I tried to do the right thing, I tried to move away but with no alcohol in my system this time around I found it harder. Her lips were soft as they coaxed mine into action. With the last bit of will power I had I tried once again to break free but she must have sensed it and moved with me. I groaned as she bit my lip, giving her the access she wanted. If I thought her lips were heaven I was lost when her tongue slid against mine.
31st May- Mexico City
Letty and Leon's apartment
I didn't know what to think as the week continued very much the same. For the first couple of nights I had tried to stay strong but after a few minutes I couldn't help but give into her advances. She was like a drug.
There had been some nights where she didn't come to me. In my head I knew that was a good thing, but eventually I cracked and went to her first. The mornings were always the same though, she left before I woke or vice versa. It was clear she didn't want to talk about what was happening and I went along with it at first, but now I needed to know.
I walked into the kitchen seeing her at the counter making our dinner. I watched as she tensed but didn't turn to me. Walking up behind her I placed my hands on hers, stilling her from what she was doing and turned her to face me.
"Letty what are we doing?" I whispered as I looked down at her.
"I… I don't know." I could hear the uncertainty in her voice as I licked my lips; I could still taste her.
"We can't continue doing this Let." I struggled to say. My heart knew it was the right thing to do but my head and body were being selfish.
"Why? Why not?"
"Because of Dom." I said truthfully and she shook her head, closing her eyes at his name.
"Don't." She pleaded as she tried to move away but I held her fast.
"Letty we both know it's true."
"Le please, don't. I don't want anything to do with him." She ground out and I nodded.
"And I believe you but he's still hanging over our heads Let, he always will be. Whether you like it or not you'll always be his."
"You think I don't know that? Sometimes I wish I hadn't gotten my memories back, I wish I could forget about him. Those pictures Leon… they're burned into my memory and I can't forget them." She whispered as she started tearing up.
"If you hadn't gotten them back you wouldn't remember any of them. Vince, Jesse, you're mum, Tony… me." I said and she nodded.
"I know… I know. I just want to forget Le. You make me feel safe and you help me forget." She said truthfully as she looked up at me and my heart ached. I couldn't blame her, I suspected that's what the answer was going to be but it didn't make it hurt any less.
"All I want to do is help and protect you and Ava Letty." I said honestly.
"You do. I know it's selfish and unfair to ask, but…" She paused and took a deep breath and I nodded.
"I get it, I'll do whatever you need me to do. We both have our selfish reasons." I added quietly and she looked up at me sadly.
"I'm sorry."
"Don't be." I said as I leaned and kissed her cheek gently.