Dom's POV
Having Letty suddenly drop 'I love you' on me after what I had done the night before had killed me. She hadn't trusted me enough to say them again since we had gotten back together then suddenly out of the blue and in the midst of my mistake she said it. She trusted me unconditionally again. If that didn't make me feel like shit I don't know what would.
On the lookout she had convinced me to stop holding back and just let go with her like I had the day I got out of prison. If I hadn't of done what I did with Tran I wouldn't have thought twice because back then I had needed that but the ride back to the house had given me time to think. By the time we got home I had talked myself out of it, she deserved more.
"You still cold?" She asked sleepily hinting to my shirt that I had insisted keeping on. I couldn't let Letty see the marks or she would know and I couldn't let that happen.
"Mmhmm sorry baby." I said quietly letting my fingers run through her hair.
"It's okay. Thank you for today and tonight, although I wish you would stop being so gentle with me." She said looking up at me but I smiled.
"I'm sorry." I said honestly.
"No don't be, I love the other side of you I just wish I got to see more of the side I got to see when you came home." She said as I stayed quiet.
I watched as she closed her eyes and I smiled still letting my finger run through her hair.
"Go to sleep baby." I said softly as I stopped and wrapped my arms around her more tightly.
"Do we have to work tomorrow?" She mumbled and I sighed.
"You know we do. We got to get this place back on its feet." I heard her sigh.
"I know. I love you Dom." I shut my eyes at her words and tried to keep my breathing even.
"I love you too baby." I said sincerely.
I watched as she fell asleep and I continued watching her long after as she slept peacefully. I ran my fingers through her hair again, I loved doing that.
"I'm sorry baby… I'm so sorry. It won't happen again baby… I love you so much. I need you so much I can't lose you." I whispered to her quietly pressing a kiss on her head. She stirred a little but only to wriggle closer to me before settling.
Two months later
I sighed angrily as I sat at the kitchen table drinking by myself. It had been two months since the first time I cheated and I wish I could say it hadn't happened again but it had. I had fought it so hard but three weeks after the first time I found myself once again late at night with Michelle after she'd tracked me down. It was Leon this time that had found out. He hadn't been pleased to say the least given that he was close with Letty. I had my suspicions that he never told hoping to be the one who would help her out if she found out in the hopes of something more than friendship coming from it but I wasn't certain.
When Vince found out it had happened again he'd sighed and looked at me knowingly.
"It's not going to happen again. I did stay away from her, she tracked me down." I stressed.
"She always had a hold over you, I never understood it. I still don't but she can get you to do anything she wants. You can't sit here and say it won't happen again because let's face it if she comes to you again would you say no?" He asked quietly.
"V… I don't know what to do. I regret it, every time I do it I regret it but at the time I just can't think. Michelle's the only thing I see and then when it's over everything comes flooding back." I said emotionally.
"Who do you want to be with?" Leon asked quietly.
"Letty." I said without hesitation.
"Then you know what you need to do… think about how much this is going to kill Letty, how much its already killing you." Vince said looking at me.
I raised my glass to my lips and downed my drink. Vince was right I couldn't sit here and say it wasn't going to happen again because the minute Michelle came to me everything else was wiped from my mind. I don't know how she did it, I never even understood it when we were dating.
I sat staring at my bottle as I played with the label on it. I had gotten back about an hour ago and I regretted to say yes I had been with Michelle again. The first thing I did was shower and then come down here to drink my guilt away. Five times… five times I cheated on Letty. I hated the way I felt after it, the feeling of being satisfied and no longer frustrated then it would hit me like a ton of brick that the girl that made me feel that way wasn't the one I was meant to be doing this with.
"Dom, you're up late." I looked up startled as Maria came through the door home from work.
"Yeah I couldn't sleep." I mumbled not being able to look at her anymore. I was cheating on her daughter who I loved, how was I supposed to look at her without feeling even more guilty.
"How are the businesses?" she asked calmly and I sighed.
"They're getting back on track." I said lightly.
"That's good…" she trailed off and I glanced at her quickly. I wasn't stupid and neither was she, she knew something was going on with the money. She hadn't asked outright but I knew she suspected there was something going on. I was just glad she agreed to go on with the wedding.
"Should I be worried?" she asked and I looked at her confused.
"About what?"
"Don't treat me like an idiot Dom, I know the money isn't all coming from the businesses. I'll admit they're doing better, the cars in the garage tell me that. I just want to know, is what you're doing legal?" She asked catching my eye.
"It's not something I'll get sent back to jail for." I said evenly and she nodded once.
"But it's not legal is it?"
"Not exactly no… Letty isn't involved if that's what you're worried about, I'd never involve her." I said softly.
"I know… but Leon and Vince are aren't they? When you were gone sometimes money would suddenly turn up, I let it slide back then."
"Everything will be fine Maria." I said softly and she sighed but nodded.
"Okay I trust you."
Pulling into the garage early the next morning I smiled as I got out of my car. With the money we were earning from racing we'd upgraded our cars, apart from Letty's and Mia's. I knew they were starting to get suspicious but we always changed the subject whenever it was brought up. What was I going to say to them? If I told them they'd want to be a part of it and I didn't want that for either of them.
I smiled down at Letty as she brushed against me. She smiled back but it didn't meet her eyes and I was beginning to worry. It wasn't the first time I had noticed that. The last couple of weeks she looked like she was in a world of her own and I was growing worried. Did she know? Had she found out? Leon and Vince were also worrying she hadn't said anything to either of them but it was obvious something was bothering her.
It was like she was hiding something and though I had no right to I was growing anxious at the thought of Letty cheating. If that was the case well it served me right but the thought unsettled me and still made me angry at the thought of another man touching her.
I was also worried about her health. She kept getting these headaches but passed them off for having a lot on her mind. She was stressing over something, stress was the only time she got headaches and it had me really worried for her health. I had asked Mia about what was bothering her but she was just as stumped over it. Letty wouldn't tell her anything just that she had a lot on her mind to think about. What did that mean?
It was later in the day when Vince nudged me and motioned across the room to Letty who was rubbing her head yet again. I frowned concerned as I watched her pained expression. I wished she tell me what was on her mind.
"You okay Let?" I asked her as I walked over to her.
"Headache." She said waving me off like usual.
"Maybe you should see a doctor, you've been getting them a lot recently." I hinted with a slight begging tone in my voice.
"I have a lot on my mind." She muttered.
"I'm just worried baby." I said concerned and she nodded giving me a small smile before going back to work. I sighed and left her alone but kept watching her throughout the day.
It was nearly dinner time when the boys and I got home. Walking in the door only to see Letty walking upstairs in her dress for the wedding made me stop and stare at her in awe. She was beautiful.
"Wow." I watched as she glared at Vince clearlystating she wasn't in the mood for any teasing.
"Don't start." She warned beforeshe started climbing the stairs again. I smiled at Vince and started up behind her.
"I wasn't going to tease. You look good." He called from the bottom.
"Uhuh." She called back.
"He's right baby you look beautiful." I said softly from behind her and she turned to giving me a smile.
"Since you're coming can you help me get this off without sticking me with the pins." She said and I smiled.
"I can try." I laughed.
"Better try hard." She stated as we walked into our room.
"You okay? How's your head?" I asked as I shut the door behind us.
"Throbbing, I think I'm going to have a nap." I sighed frowning watching as she stopped at the foot of the bed lifting her hair off her neck.
"Uh… how the hell do you undo this?" I asked looking at the back of the dress. It looked very complicated.
"Start with the bow first off and then just gently loosen the strings." She laughed lightly and I frowning pulling the bow letting it undo before pulling softly at the strings that laced the back of the dress up loosening them.
"Right… why did your mum pick such a hard dress for me to get you out of anyway?" I asked not really thinking as I said it.
"I don't think she was thinking about us having sex when she bought them." I mentally slapped myself.
"I guess that would be a bit weird if she did." I said sheepishly.
"Just a bit." I heard her yawn just as I finished. I watched as she gently shimmied the dress down and stepped out of it. I watched as she laid the dress flat on the bed neatly no doubt knowing Maria would hit the roof it she left it on the floor.
"Now this is much better." I said cheekily as I wrapped my arms around her waist. She was only standing in her underwear as I softly ran my hands over her sides and stomach pressing a kiss to her temple in thought.
"I know of a way to get rid of your headache." I hinted but I caught her smile.
"Mmm and what might that be?" She asked playing along.
"It involves you, me and this bed for the next hour or so." I said nipping at her neck gently.
"As good as that sounds, mum's home for the next half an hour." I sighed.
"Well after she's gone I'll help you out if you're still interested." I said lightly and she sighed content.
"See how I go. I'll take the dress down to mum and then I'm going to lay down." She said moving out of my arms to pull on a pair of shorts and a top. I shook my head and moved towards the dress. She needed to rest.
"I'll take it down baby, you rest. I'll be back up soon." I said to her giving her a soft kiss before I walked out shutting the door behind me before continuing downstairs.
I took the dress into Maria smiling at Mia as she stood up on a chair paitently as Maria hemmed her dress.
"Where do you want this Maria?" I asked as I looked for somewhere to put Letty's dress.
"Just on the back of that chair there Dom will be fine." She said pointing to the chair closet to me. I draped it gently over the back and stepped away.
"You look pretty Mia." I said smiling at my little sister as she sent me a grin.
"Don't I always?" she joked and I laughed.
"Only when you're not being annoying." I joked back.
"Me annoying? Never." She grinned cheekily and I laughed shaking my head.
"Where's Letty?" Maria asked.
"Laying down, she has another headache." I said frowning.
"Another one?" she asked frowning.
"Yeah. She stressing about something but I don't know what." I said quietly and Maria made a noise of agreement but didn't comment any further which I thought was weird but let it slide.
I walked back out to the boys who were playing with playstation. I sat with them and joined in for a game or two before I got up and went upstairs to check on Letty.
"Baby?" I asked quietly as I walked in shutting the door behind me.
"Mmmm." She whined softly as I crawled up the bed until I was behind her and lay down folding her in my arms.
"You feeling okay?" I asked quietly kissing her shoulder.
"My head hurts." She said quietly.
"Poor baby... Why are you so tense Let?" I asked quietly as my hands started massaging her shoulders the best I could.
"Just got a lot on my mind." She said tiredly leaning into my touch. I rolled her over gently so she was lying on her stomach as I moved over her legs leaning over her back.
"Like?" I asked trying to get her to explain as I tugged at her shirt. She helped me by lifting off the bed as I pulled it off with her help and threw it off onto the floor. My hands made quick work of her bra and I smiled listening as she sighed happily as my hands kneaded her tense muscles.
"Just everything." She said waving me off like normal. I stilled as she said that now getting really worried something was wrong.
"Nothing you can talk to me about?" I asked hopefully. I felt her tense a little and I began to get some serious worrying thoughts. I hadn't been here a lot. Was she cheating? Was she going behind my back? Why was she hiding things from me? Did she know?
"Not right now." she said quietly and I held my breath before letting it out shakily.
"Okay baby well I'm here to listen when you're ready." I said softly hoping she would seriously consider it.
"I know."
"So about that offer from before… do you want some help?" I asked quietly.
"Can you guarantee my headache is going to go away?" She asked hopefully but I heard the playful tone in it.
"No but I'll try my hardest." I smiled as she turned underneath me and I let my hands make their way up to her breasts palming the skin softly.
"I think you have too many clothes on." She stated as I smiled widely down at her.
"I think I can fix that." I said happily as I leant down into her.
I was going to change this. In my mind something was seriously wrong and I wasn't willing to risk Letty for anything, I would just have to find a way to get over my issues with her and rough sex.
Having Letty suddenly drop 'I love you' on me after what I had done the night before had killed me. She hadn't trusted me enough to say them again since we had gotten back together then suddenly out of the blue and in the midst of my mistake she said it. She trusted me unconditionally again. If that didn't make me feel like shit I don't know what would.
On the lookout she had convinced me to stop holding back and just let go with her like I had the day I got out of prison. If I hadn't of done what I did with Tran I wouldn't have thought twice because back then I had needed that but the ride back to the house had given me time to think. By the time we got home I had talked myself out of it, she deserved more.
"You still cold?" She asked sleepily hinting to my shirt that I had insisted keeping on. I couldn't let Letty see the marks or she would know and I couldn't let that happen.
"Mmhmm sorry baby." I said quietly letting my fingers run through her hair.
"It's okay. Thank you for today and tonight, although I wish you would stop being so gentle with me." She said looking up at me but I smiled.
"I'm sorry." I said honestly.
"No don't be, I love the other side of you I just wish I got to see more of the side I got to see when you came home." She said as I stayed quiet.
I watched as she closed her eyes and I smiled still letting my finger run through her hair.
"Go to sleep baby." I said softly as I stopped and wrapped my arms around her more tightly.
"Do we have to work tomorrow?" She mumbled and I sighed.
"You know we do. We got to get this place back on its feet." I heard her sigh.
"I know. I love you Dom." I shut my eyes at her words and tried to keep my breathing even.
"I love you too baby." I said sincerely.
I watched as she fell asleep and I continued watching her long after as she slept peacefully. I ran my fingers through her hair again, I loved doing that.
"I'm sorry baby… I'm so sorry. It won't happen again baby… I love you so much. I need you so much I can't lose you." I whispered to her quietly pressing a kiss on her head. She stirred a little but only to wriggle closer to me before settling.
Two months later
I sighed angrily as I sat at the kitchen table drinking by myself. It had been two months since the first time I cheated and I wish I could say it hadn't happened again but it had. I had fought it so hard but three weeks after the first time I found myself once again late at night with Michelle after she'd tracked me down. It was Leon this time that had found out. He hadn't been pleased to say the least given that he was close with Letty. I had my suspicions that he never told hoping to be the one who would help her out if she found out in the hopes of something more than friendship coming from it but I wasn't certain.
When Vince found out it had happened again he'd sighed and looked at me knowingly.
"It's not going to happen again. I did stay away from her, she tracked me down." I stressed.
"She always had a hold over you, I never understood it. I still don't but she can get you to do anything she wants. You can't sit here and say it won't happen again because let's face it if she comes to you again would you say no?" He asked quietly.
"V… I don't know what to do. I regret it, every time I do it I regret it but at the time I just can't think. Michelle's the only thing I see and then when it's over everything comes flooding back." I said emotionally.
"Who do you want to be with?" Leon asked quietly.
"Letty." I said without hesitation.
"Then you know what you need to do… think about how much this is going to kill Letty, how much its already killing you." Vince said looking at me.
I raised my glass to my lips and downed my drink. Vince was right I couldn't sit here and say it wasn't going to happen again because the minute Michelle came to me everything else was wiped from my mind. I don't know how she did it, I never even understood it when we were dating.
I sat staring at my bottle as I played with the label on it. I had gotten back about an hour ago and I regretted to say yes I had been with Michelle again. The first thing I did was shower and then come down here to drink my guilt away. Five times… five times I cheated on Letty. I hated the way I felt after it, the feeling of being satisfied and no longer frustrated then it would hit me like a ton of brick that the girl that made me feel that way wasn't the one I was meant to be doing this with.
"Dom, you're up late." I looked up startled as Maria came through the door home from work.
"Yeah I couldn't sleep." I mumbled not being able to look at her anymore. I was cheating on her daughter who I loved, how was I supposed to look at her without feeling even more guilty.
"How are the businesses?" she asked calmly and I sighed.
"They're getting back on track." I said lightly.
"That's good…" she trailed off and I glanced at her quickly. I wasn't stupid and neither was she, she knew something was going on with the money. She hadn't asked outright but I knew she suspected there was something going on. I was just glad she agreed to go on with the wedding.
"Should I be worried?" she asked and I looked at her confused.
"About what?"
"Don't treat me like an idiot Dom, I know the money isn't all coming from the businesses. I'll admit they're doing better, the cars in the garage tell me that. I just want to know, is what you're doing legal?" She asked catching my eye.
"It's not something I'll get sent back to jail for." I said evenly and she nodded once.
"But it's not legal is it?"
"Not exactly no… Letty isn't involved if that's what you're worried about, I'd never involve her." I said softly.
"I know… but Leon and Vince are aren't they? When you were gone sometimes money would suddenly turn up, I let it slide back then."
"Everything will be fine Maria." I said softly and she sighed but nodded.
"Okay I trust you."
Pulling into the garage early the next morning I smiled as I got out of my car. With the money we were earning from racing we'd upgraded our cars, apart from Letty's and Mia's. I knew they were starting to get suspicious but we always changed the subject whenever it was brought up. What was I going to say to them? If I told them they'd want to be a part of it and I didn't want that for either of them.
I smiled down at Letty as she brushed against me. She smiled back but it didn't meet her eyes and I was beginning to worry. It wasn't the first time I had noticed that. The last couple of weeks she looked like she was in a world of her own and I was growing worried. Did she know? Had she found out? Leon and Vince were also worrying she hadn't said anything to either of them but it was obvious something was bothering her.
It was like she was hiding something and though I had no right to I was growing anxious at the thought of Letty cheating. If that was the case well it served me right but the thought unsettled me and still made me angry at the thought of another man touching her.
I was also worried about her health. She kept getting these headaches but passed them off for having a lot on her mind. She was stressing over something, stress was the only time she got headaches and it had me really worried for her health. I had asked Mia about what was bothering her but she was just as stumped over it. Letty wouldn't tell her anything just that she had a lot on her mind to think about. What did that mean?
It was later in the day when Vince nudged me and motioned across the room to Letty who was rubbing her head yet again. I frowned concerned as I watched her pained expression. I wished she tell me what was on her mind.
"You okay Let?" I asked her as I walked over to her.
"Headache." She said waving me off like usual.
"Maybe you should see a doctor, you've been getting them a lot recently." I hinted with a slight begging tone in my voice.
"I have a lot on my mind." She muttered.
"I'm just worried baby." I said concerned and she nodded giving me a small smile before going back to work. I sighed and left her alone but kept watching her throughout the day.
It was nearly dinner time when the boys and I got home. Walking in the door only to see Letty walking upstairs in her dress for the wedding made me stop and stare at her in awe. She was beautiful.
"Wow." I watched as she glared at Vince clearlystating she wasn't in the mood for any teasing.
"Don't start." She warned beforeshe started climbing the stairs again. I smiled at Vince and started up behind her.
"I wasn't going to tease. You look good." He called from the bottom.
"Uhuh." She called back.
"He's right baby you look beautiful." I said softly from behind her and she turned to giving me a smile.
"Since you're coming can you help me get this off without sticking me with the pins." She said and I smiled.
"I can try." I laughed.
"Better try hard." She stated as we walked into our room.
"You okay? How's your head?" I asked as I shut the door behind us.
"Throbbing, I think I'm going to have a nap." I sighed frowning watching as she stopped at the foot of the bed lifting her hair off her neck.
"Uh… how the hell do you undo this?" I asked looking at the back of the dress. It looked very complicated.
"Start with the bow first off and then just gently loosen the strings." She laughed lightly and I frowning pulling the bow letting it undo before pulling softly at the strings that laced the back of the dress up loosening them.
"Right… why did your mum pick such a hard dress for me to get you out of anyway?" I asked not really thinking as I said it.
"I don't think she was thinking about us having sex when she bought them." I mentally slapped myself.
"I guess that would be a bit weird if she did." I said sheepishly.
"Just a bit." I heard her yawn just as I finished. I watched as she gently shimmied the dress down and stepped out of it. I watched as she laid the dress flat on the bed neatly no doubt knowing Maria would hit the roof it she left it on the floor.
"Now this is much better." I said cheekily as I wrapped my arms around her waist. She was only standing in her underwear as I softly ran my hands over her sides and stomach pressing a kiss to her temple in thought.
"I know of a way to get rid of your headache." I hinted but I caught her smile.
"Mmm and what might that be?" She asked playing along.
"It involves you, me and this bed for the next hour or so." I said nipping at her neck gently.
"As good as that sounds, mum's home for the next half an hour." I sighed.
"Well after she's gone I'll help you out if you're still interested." I said lightly and she sighed content.
"See how I go. I'll take the dress down to mum and then I'm going to lay down." She said moving out of my arms to pull on a pair of shorts and a top. I shook my head and moved towards the dress. She needed to rest.
"I'll take it down baby, you rest. I'll be back up soon." I said to her giving her a soft kiss before I walked out shutting the door behind me before continuing downstairs.
I took the dress into Maria smiling at Mia as she stood up on a chair paitently as Maria hemmed her dress.
"Where do you want this Maria?" I asked as I looked for somewhere to put Letty's dress.
"Just on the back of that chair there Dom will be fine." She said pointing to the chair closet to me. I draped it gently over the back and stepped away.
"You look pretty Mia." I said smiling at my little sister as she sent me a grin.
"Don't I always?" she joked and I laughed.
"Only when you're not being annoying." I joked back.
"Me annoying? Never." She grinned cheekily and I laughed shaking my head.
"Where's Letty?" Maria asked.
"Laying down, she has another headache." I said frowning.
"Another one?" she asked frowning.
"Yeah. She stressing about something but I don't know what." I said quietly and Maria made a noise of agreement but didn't comment any further which I thought was weird but let it slide.
I walked back out to the boys who were playing with playstation. I sat with them and joined in for a game or two before I got up and went upstairs to check on Letty.
"Baby?" I asked quietly as I walked in shutting the door behind me.
"Mmmm." She whined softly as I crawled up the bed until I was behind her and lay down folding her in my arms.
"You feeling okay?" I asked quietly kissing her shoulder.
"My head hurts." She said quietly.
"Poor baby... Why are you so tense Let?" I asked quietly as my hands started massaging her shoulders the best I could.
"Just got a lot on my mind." She said tiredly leaning into my touch. I rolled her over gently so she was lying on her stomach as I moved over her legs leaning over her back.
"Like?" I asked trying to get her to explain as I tugged at her shirt. She helped me by lifting off the bed as I pulled it off with her help and threw it off onto the floor. My hands made quick work of her bra and I smiled listening as she sighed happily as my hands kneaded her tense muscles.
"Just everything." She said waving me off like normal. I stilled as she said that now getting really worried something was wrong.
"Nothing you can talk to me about?" I asked hopefully. I felt her tense a little and I began to get some serious worrying thoughts. I hadn't been here a lot. Was she cheating? Was she going behind my back? Why was she hiding things from me? Did she know?
"Not right now." she said quietly and I held my breath before letting it out shakily.
"Okay baby well I'm here to listen when you're ready." I said softly hoping she would seriously consider it.
"I know."
"So about that offer from before… do you want some help?" I asked quietly.
"Can you guarantee my headache is going to go away?" She asked hopefully but I heard the playful tone in it.
"No but I'll try my hardest." I smiled as she turned underneath me and I let my hands make their way up to her breasts palming the skin softly.
"I think you have too many clothes on." She stated as I smiled widely down at her.
"I think I can fix that." I said happily as I leant down into her.
I was going to change this. In my mind something was seriously wrong and I wasn't willing to risk Letty for anything, I would just have to find a way to get over my issues with her and rough sex.