Dom's POV
It was really early in the morning when I got home shutting the door quietly behind me. I stood there leaning against it my eyes trained on the floor in sorrow. I looked up and around the house it didn't look like anyone else was awake as I slowly made my way into the kitchen. I sat down at the table and put my hands in head.
'What the hell had I done?'
My clothes from the day before were crumpled and I smelt like cheap perfume. Realizing that everyone would start to wake soon I had to go shower. I stood quickly and made my way upstairs and into my room but I stopped when I saw Letty fast asleep in bed. I stood my heart pumping loudly in my ears as I struggled with myself. She had come to me and I hadn't been here. No instead I had gone and met Tran, making a huge mistake in the process. I swallowed nervously as I looked at her. She really was an angel.
"Oh baby what have I done?" I asked myself quietly. She stirred and I froze only relaxing when she settled again. I quickly picked up a clean set of clothes and walked into the bathroom locking the door behind me. I stripped quickly out of the clothes I was in and stepped into the shower not even flinching when the scolding hot water hit my skin. I looked disgusted at the nail marks down my chest and I had no doubt they were on my back too. I closed my eyes and breathed. It had felt so good to just let go and forget about everything. Then I realised who I was with and everything hit me like a ton of bricks. I had cheated on Letty and to make things worse with Michelle fucking Tran. I felt disgusted with myself and the guilt was gnawing at my insides. The worst part about it though was all the frustration I had felt from the last couple of days was no longer there. It made me feel sick, the fact that someone who I despised and cheated on my girlfriend with could make me feel better.
Getting out I dressed slowly refusing to look in the mirror afraid to see the person staring back at me. I heard movement on the other side of the door and tried to look normal.
"Hey." I said quietly as I walked out watching as she stretched out in bed. She looked up smiling lightly at me patting the space next to her. I hesitated, the guilt still chewing me up but as I looked at her I found myself moving towards her. I lay down next to her and stilled as she snuggled up to me. I closed my eyes fearing the smell of Tran was still lingering on me but she said nothing as she sighed happily. I carefully took her into my arms and held her. I felt a sense of calm wash over me instantly and it just me feel worse.
'I should have just gone to bed the other night and none of this would have happened. I would've been calm instantly with Letty near.'
"Where were you?" She asked quietly as she looked up at me.
"I was…" Her eyes made me feel like she could see straight through me but her expression was so innocent. I wanted tell her but I didn't want to break her heart again. My night with Michelle had been a mistake and it wouldn't ever happen again.
"I was just looking over the books again. I think I have a plan now."
"Am I allowed to know?" she asked quietly and I smiled softly at her question. I never thought about what to tell her seeing as she didn't know about the racing scene so I let the question slide.
"I'm sorry about last night, I shouldn't have said to you what I did. I was just so frustrated and… I never meant to take it out on you." I apologized sincerely. I had so much to apologize for but I vowed to make it up to her.
"I never meant for sex… I just wanted to be next to you." she said sadly and my heart tightened in regret.
"I know baby…" I choked out.
"I'll try and give you some space." I shook my head.
"No that's not what I want. It's just a lot happened in a short amount of time. It all just got too much. I'm sorry baby…let me make it up to you?" I asked smiling down at her softly as I brushed her face softly.
"What did you have in mind?"
"Just the two of us together for the day? Where ever you want to go or whatever you want to do we'll do it. I want to spend time with you as much as you do with me. I missed you Letty." I breathed out and she smiled.
"Sounds good, I have a place in mind for later tonight. I found it on my drive yesterday." I really wanted to tell her off for driving that far away without telling anyone but I stopped knowing I was the one in the wrong.
"Sounds great baby, what would you like to do for the day?"
"We could hang out at the beach like old times. It's been a while." I struggled to talk.
"The beach?" I asked trying to keep my voice calm. That place had been tainted for me. I couldn't take her there.
"Yeah we used to go there all the time when we first started dating. It's a special place… well for me anyway."
'IDIOT,IDIOT, IDIOT! You've gone and ruined this!' I screamed mentally at myself all the while dying inside as scenes from last night at the beach flashed through my mind.
"Yeah we did… it is….I'll take you anywhere you want to go baby." I said sadly thankful she didn't notice instead she leant up kissing me soundly before grinning in happiness.
"Thank you. Give me ten minutes then we can go." I smiled at her. She was so happy and all I wanted was to feel the same so I locked my mistake away for today. Nothing was going to ruin today, it was going to be all about her.
"Hey, come here for a second." I said softly as I pulled her back. She looked at me expectantly and again I was reminded of her innocence.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
"Nothing I just never got a chance to return your kiss." I said playfully. I watched as she grinned and leant over happily kissing me. I kissed her back softly as I held her head gently. It was only short but it was enough to make me feel like a prick. Who cheats on the girl they love?
'Me.' I thought sadly before I threw the thought out of my mind.
"Okay be ready in ten." She said as she bounded off into the bathroom.
I lay there for a little longer my face dropping the minute the bathroom door shut. I was such a prick for doing this to her.
I walked downstairs and into the kitchen in a daze. No matter how much I tried I couldn't get last night off my mind when I was alone. To torture myself with maybe? Yeah probably and it was working.
"Hey." I looked up at Vince and nodded.
"So where did you go last night? I didn't hear you come home." He said and I could tell by the look on his face he was accusing me.
"I didn't mean it. I don't know how it happened, one minute we were talking and the next she…we…." His face hardened and he stood up quickly slamming me into the wall.
"What the fuck did you do?" he demanded quietly.
"V… Vince I…"
"What did you do?" he ground out shaking me a bit.
"I fucked Tran." I whispered and he shoved me back hard.
"I knew it. I went looking for you last night thinking you were at the garage but you weren't there. I just knew."
"It was a mistake and it won't happen again. Seeing her so happy just before killed me. I don't want to be the one to cause her anymore pain. I have to tell her." I explained quietly.
"You can't tell her… no don't look at me like that. You can't tell her." He shot back.
"I need to, V if she finds out off anyone else I'm going to lose her." I said hurriedly.
"No you listen to me. I'll take care of it okay? You just got out of prison, your adjusting. It's going to take some time. You have a lot to deal with… you were bound to slip up once or twice…"
"V don't make excuses for what I did." I said quietly.
"Dom shut up and listen. You tell her and you WILL lose her, do you want that?"
"Noof course not, I love her." I cried.
"Then keep your mouth shut. Put on a happy face and treat her like a princess, forget about Tran. Don't speak to her, don't text her, don't meet with her… wipe her number if you have to. Just pretend it never happened, understood?" I sighed heavily as I looked at him.
"What about the races?"
"If I have to I'll glue myself to you just so it doesn't happen again."
"So what doesn't happen again?" We both turned in shock as we heard Letty's question. I felt dread wash through me at the thought of her having over heard.
"We were just talking about an order Dom screwed up." Vince lied and I smiled tensely at them but otherwise kept quiet.
"Oh okay, you ready? I got the towels." She asked me. I saw Vince's glare and put on a fake smile and nodded.
"Yeah baby I'm ready." I said trying to keep my voice light.
"Where are you two off to?" Vince asked.
"The beach, I thought Letty and I might have a day to ourselves." I said avoiding his gaze.
"Sounds great. I think you two need it."
"Come on baby the beach is calling." I said leaning down to drop a kiss on her head meeting Vince's eyes at the same time.
"Don't screw this up." He mouthed to me and I nodded as I picked up Letty's hand. We called goodbye and left. I paused outside and she looked at me confused until I held up my keys hopefully. She laughed but took them leaning up to kiss me. I was left grinning when she pulled away and ran off to my car.
"You coming or what papa?" I made my way over to her quickly, her pet name for me ringing loudly in my ears.
"Yeah baby let's go." I said quietly getting into the passenger's seat.
"You okay?" I smiled down at Letty as we lay sprawled over my hood at the lookout point she had found yesterday. She was right it was beautiful.
"Yeah just thinking about today, I missed this." I said pulling her closer.
"The nights still young yet papa." She hinted and I smiled.
"Is it just?" I teased. Forgetting about last night had been easier with each passing minute I spent with Letty. The guilt was still there and it wouldn't ever go away but I was able to forget about it for the day just to make her happy.
"Mmhmm."
"Well I know of an ice cream parlor around the here." I said smiling and she laughed at me softly. I was surprised when she rolled us over so she was leaning over me.
"I wasn't talking about ice cream or any other type of food for that matter."
"No?" I asked smiling as I tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.
"No." To be honest I didn't know whether I had it in me to make love to her after last night. I wanted to, god how I wanted to. I wanted to shower her with love and affection but I felt dirty after being with Tran and I didn't want that on Letty.
"Then let's go home." I said slowly still unsure about what I was going to do.
"Home?" I frowned. Did I have the wrong idea?
Letty's POV
I laughed lightly at his confused expression.
"Or not…?" he asked and again I smiled leaning down to kiss him.
"Dom I'm all for making love, you make me feel special when we do but you don't have to be careful with me all the time. I won't break… plus I hate it when you hold back on me." I said honestly and he looked surprised.
"I… I don't hold back." Again I smiled.
"Yes you do. When you came home we spent hours in your room-"
"Our room." He interjected and I gave him a look for interrupting.
"Our room… just being wild before I noticed you settled back down. I should have seen it sooner but I didn't… it was only then that I noticed the difference in you. It was like you realised you were being rough and immediately held back and started being gentle again. Like I said I don't mind it… I love that side of you, but Dom you don't have to be like that all the time." I explained to him gently.
"… oh Letty." I was confused when he suddenly closed his eyes and turned away from me. Had I said something wrong?
"What?" I said worriedly but he stayed quiet with his eyes closed as if he was in pain.
"Dom what's wrong? Did I say something wrong?" I asked quietly.
"No… no baby you did nothing wrong. You deserve so much more than me." I rolled my eyes at him and leant down kissing him softly waiting until he kissed back before I kissed him hard.
I straddled him the best I could given that we were on his car. His hands rested on my hips as he kissed me back. I pressed into him harder feeling that he was still holding back. He groaned when I ground into him hard and I felt his hands grip into my hips tight. I moaned at the feeling and he kissed me harder. This was better.
His hands and lips were everywhere and I was glad we were alone up here. I mewed loudly as his hands slid up my top palming my breasts through my bra. I ran a hand down over his jeans listening to him moan and his hips buck at the contact.
"Let." He mumbled and I made a noise of agreement as we pulled ourselves away from each other. I stared down at him as he breathed heavily looking back at me.
"I love you Dom." I said quietly and he paused looking up at me in surprise.
"I… I love you too Letty, always. You have no idea how much you mean to me" I smiled down at him leaning down to place a kiss on his lips before pulling back.
"Probably the same as you mean to me."
It was really early in the morning when I got home shutting the door quietly behind me. I stood there leaning against it my eyes trained on the floor in sorrow. I looked up and around the house it didn't look like anyone else was awake as I slowly made my way into the kitchen. I sat down at the table and put my hands in head.
'What the hell had I done?'
My clothes from the day before were crumpled and I smelt like cheap perfume. Realizing that everyone would start to wake soon I had to go shower. I stood quickly and made my way upstairs and into my room but I stopped when I saw Letty fast asleep in bed. I stood my heart pumping loudly in my ears as I struggled with myself. She had come to me and I hadn't been here. No instead I had gone and met Tran, making a huge mistake in the process. I swallowed nervously as I looked at her. She really was an angel.
"Oh baby what have I done?" I asked myself quietly. She stirred and I froze only relaxing when she settled again. I quickly picked up a clean set of clothes and walked into the bathroom locking the door behind me. I stripped quickly out of the clothes I was in and stepped into the shower not even flinching when the scolding hot water hit my skin. I looked disgusted at the nail marks down my chest and I had no doubt they were on my back too. I closed my eyes and breathed. It had felt so good to just let go and forget about everything. Then I realised who I was with and everything hit me like a ton of bricks. I had cheated on Letty and to make things worse with Michelle fucking Tran. I felt disgusted with myself and the guilt was gnawing at my insides. The worst part about it though was all the frustration I had felt from the last couple of days was no longer there. It made me feel sick, the fact that someone who I despised and cheated on my girlfriend with could make me feel better.
Getting out I dressed slowly refusing to look in the mirror afraid to see the person staring back at me. I heard movement on the other side of the door and tried to look normal.
"Hey." I said quietly as I walked out watching as she stretched out in bed. She looked up smiling lightly at me patting the space next to her. I hesitated, the guilt still chewing me up but as I looked at her I found myself moving towards her. I lay down next to her and stilled as she snuggled up to me. I closed my eyes fearing the smell of Tran was still lingering on me but she said nothing as she sighed happily. I carefully took her into my arms and held her. I felt a sense of calm wash over me instantly and it just me feel worse.
'I should have just gone to bed the other night and none of this would have happened. I would've been calm instantly with Letty near.'
"Where were you?" She asked quietly as she looked up at me.
"I was…" Her eyes made me feel like she could see straight through me but her expression was so innocent. I wanted tell her but I didn't want to break her heart again. My night with Michelle had been a mistake and it wouldn't ever happen again.
"I was just looking over the books again. I think I have a plan now."
"Am I allowed to know?" she asked quietly and I smiled softly at her question. I never thought about what to tell her seeing as she didn't know about the racing scene so I let the question slide.
"I'm sorry about last night, I shouldn't have said to you what I did. I was just so frustrated and… I never meant to take it out on you." I apologized sincerely. I had so much to apologize for but I vowed to make it up to her.
"I never meant for sex… I just wanted to be next to you." she said sadly and my heart tightened in regret.
"I know baby…" I choked out.
"I'll try and give you some space." I shook my head.
"No that's not what I want. It's just a lot happened in a short amount of time. It all just got too much. I'm sorry baby…let me make it up to you?" I asked smiling down at her softly as I brushed her face softly.
"What did you have in mind?"
"Just the two of us together for the day? Where ever you want to go or whatever you want to do we'll do it. I want to spend time with you as much as you do with me. I missed you Letty." I breathed out and she smiled.
"Sounds good, I have a place in mind for later tonight. I found it on my drive yesterday." I really wanted to tell her off for driving that far away without telling anyone but I stopped knowing I was the one in the wrong.
"Sounds great baby, what would you like to do for the day?"
"We could hang out at the beach like old times. It's been a while." I struggled to talk.
"The beach?" I asked trying to keep my voice calm. That place had been tainted for me. I couldn't take her there.
"Yeah we used to go there all the time when we first started dating. It's a special place… well for me anyway."
'IDIOT,IDIOT, IDIOT! You've gone and ruined this!' I screamed mentally at myself all the while dying inside as scenes from last night at the beach flashed through my mind.
"Yeah we did… it is….I'll take you anywhere you want to go baby." I said sadly thankful she didn't notice instead she leant up kissing me soundly before grinning in happiness.
"Thank you. Give me ten minutes then we can go." I smiled at her. She was so happy and all I wanted was to feel the same so I locked my mistake away for today. Nothing was going to ruin today, it was going to be all about her.
"Hey, come here for a second." I said softly as I pulled her back. She looked at me expectantly and again I was reminded of her innocence.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
"Nothing I just never got a chance to return your kiss." I said playfully. I watched as she grinned and leant over happily kissing me. I kissed her back softly as I held her head gently. It was only short but it was enough to make me feel like a prick. Who cheats on the girl they love?
'Me.' I thought sadly before I threw the thought out of my mind.
"Okay be ready in ten." She said as she bounded off into the bathroom.
I lay there for a little longer my face dropping the minute the bathroom door shut. I was such a prick for doing this to her.
I walked downstairs and into the kitchen in a daze. No matter how much I tried I couldn't get last night off my mind when I was alone. To torture myself with maybe? Yeah probably and it was working.
"Hey." I looked up at Vince and nodded.
"So where did you go last night? I didn't hear you come home." He said and I could tell by the look on his face he was accusing me.
"I didn't mean it. I don't know how it happened, one minute we were talking and the next she…we…." His face hardened and he stood up quickly slamming me into the wall.
"What the fuck did you do?" he demanded quietly.
"V… Vince I…"
"What did you do?" he ground out shaking me a bit.
"I fucked Tran." I whispered and he shoved me back hard.
"I knew it. I went looking for you last night thinking you were at the garage but you weren't there. I just knew."
"It was a mistake and it won't happen again. Seeing her so happy just before killed me. I don't want to be the one to cause her anymore pain. I have to tell her." I explained quietly.
"You can't tell her… no don't look at me like that. You can't tell her." He shot back.
"I need to, V if she finds out off anyone else I'm going to lose her." I said hurriedly.
"No you listen to me. I'll take care of it okay? You just got out of prison, your adjusting. It's going to take some time. You have a lot to deal with… you were bound to slip up once or twice…"
"V don't make excuses for what I did." I said quietly.
"Dom shut up and listen. You tell her and you WILL lose her, do you want that?"
"Noof course not, I love her." I cried.
"Then keep your mouth shut. Put on a happy face and treat her like a princess, forget about Tran. Don't speak to her, don't text her, don't meet with her… wipe her number if you have to. Just pretend it never happened, understood?" I sighed heavily as I looked at him.
"What about the races?"
"If I have to I'll glue myself to you just so it doesn't happen again."
"So what doesn't happen again?" We both turned in shock as we heard Letty's question. I felt dread wash through me at the thought of her having over heard.
"We were just talking about an order Dom screwed up." Vince lied and I smiled tensely at them but otherwise kept quiet.
"Oh okay, you ready? I got the towels." She asked me. I saw Vince's glare and put on a fake smile and nodded.
"Yeah baby I'm ready." I said trying to keep my voice light.
"Where are you two off to?" Vince asked.
"The beach, I thought Letty and I might have a day to ourselves." I said avoiding his gaze.
"Sounds great. I think you two need it."
"Come on baby the beach is calling." I said leaning down to drop a kiss on her head meeting Vince's eyes at the same time.
"Don't screw this up." He mouthed to me and I nodded as I picked up Letty's hand. We called goodbye and left. I paused outside and she looked at me confused until I held up my keys hopefully. She laughed but took them leaning up to kiss me. I was left grinning when she pulled away and ran off to my car.
"You coming or what papa?" I made my way over to her quickly, her pet name for me ringing loudly in my ears.
"Yeah baby let's go." I said quietly getting into the passenger's seat.
"You okay?" I smiled down at Letty as we lay sprawled over my hood at the lookout point she had found yesterday. She was right it was beautiful.
"Yeah just thinking about today, I missed this." I said pulling her closer.
"The nights still young yet papa." She hinted and I smiled.
"Is it just?" I teased. Forgetting about last night had been easier with each passing minute I spent with Letty. The guilt was still there and it wouldn't ever go away but I was able to forget about it for the day just to make her happy.
"Mmhmm."
"Well I know of an ice cream parlor around the here." I said smiling and she laughed at me softly. I was surprised when she rolled us over so she was leaning over me.
"I wasn't talking about ice cream or any other type of food for that matter."
"No?" I asked smiling as I tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.
"No." To be honest I didn't know whether I had it in me to make love to her after last night. I wanted to, god how I wanted to. I wanted to shower her with love and affection but I felt dirty after being with Tran and I didn't want that on Letty.
"Then let's go home." I said slowly still unsure about what I was going to do.
"Home?" I frowned. Did I have the wrong idea?
Letty's POV
I laughed lightly at his confused expression.
"Or not…?" he asked and again I smiled leaning down to kiss him.
"Dom I'm all for making love, you make me feel special when we do but you don't have to be careful with me all the time. I won't break… plus I hate it when you hold back on me." I said honestly and he looked surprised.
"I… I don't hold back." Again I smiled.
"Yes you do. When you came home we spent hours in your room-"
"Our room." He interjected and I gave him a look for interrupting.
"Our room… just being wild before I noticed you settled back down. I should have seen it sooner but I didn't… it was only then that I noticed the difference in you. It was like you realised you were being rough and immediately held back and started being gentle again. Like I said I don't mind it… I love that side of you, but Dom you don't have to be like that all the time." I explained to him gently.
"… oh Letty." I was confused when he suddenly closed his eyes and turned away from me. Had I said something wrong?
"What?" I said worriedly but he stayed quiet with his eyes closed as if he was in pain.
"Dom what's wrong? Did I say something wrong?" I asked quietly.
"No… no baby you did nothing wrong. You deserve so much more than me." I rolled my eyes at him and leant down kissing him softly waiting until he kissed back before I kissed him hard.
I straddled him the best I could given that we were on his car. His hands rested on my hips as he kissed me back. I pressed into him harder feeling that he was still holding back. He groaned when I ground into him hard and I felt his hands grip into my hips tight. I moaned at the feeling and he kissed me harder. This was better.
His hands and lips were everywhere and I was glad we were alone up here. I mewed loudly as his hands slid up my top palming my breasts through my bra. I ran a hand down over his jeans listening to him moan and his hips buck at the contact.
"Let." He mumbled and I made a noise of agreement as we pulled ourselves away from each other. I stared down at him as he breathed heavily looking back at me.
"I love you Dom." I said quietly and he paused looking up at me in surprise.
"I… I love you too Letty, always. You have no idea how much you mean to me" I smiled down at him leaning down to place a kiss on his lips before pulling back.
"Probably the same as you mean to me."