Dom's POV
"These are for you…" I said sadly as I held up the flowers and she just looked from them to me not moving. I sighed and lowered my hand looking at the ground.
"Okay I'll just leave them here." I said quietly as I sat them down on the ground next to the door.
"You haven't answered my question, what the fuck are you doing here?" she asked again this time with more anger behind her voice.
"I just wanted to explain…" I started quietly.
"I don't want to hear it. Leave." She cut me off and I just stared sadly at her.
"Let… please just let me explain. I'm not asking for your forgiveness because I don't deserve it, I know that." I whispered quietly and she made a noise of agreement.
"You're right you don't deserve it nor are you getting it. I can't believe you… after everything we've been through." She ground out staring at me.
"I know… I know. If I could take it all back I would, I never meant it but it just happened and I couldn't stop. Before I realised it I was in too far." I said to her softly, my eyes begging her silently.
"I can't even trust you anymore." She whispered and I nodded.
"I know… no one can. It hurts but I know it's my fault."
"Was it just her or were there others?" she asked suddenly and I reluctantly met her gaze so she knew I was telling her the truth.
"Just her."
"Do you still have feelings for her? Is that why you slept with her?" She demanded and I shook my head still meeting her gaze finding it almost unbearable but I knew I had to do it.
"No, I never had feelings for her. What we had years ago and what happened weeks ago was purely physical."
"Physical." She scoffed as she looked away from me for a moment before she turned back to me.
"Then what is she to you Dom?" She snapped.
"Nothing." I said truthfully.
"I don't believe you. You had me… I was your girlfriend, I was the one you were supposed to come to instead of going to that… whore. You couldn't trust me enough, that's what the issue is Dom."
"Let I do trust you. I never wanted to hurt you, all I wanted when I got out was to pick up where we left off, but I couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to be with you in any other way then how I was back then but jail changed me and I wasn't... I'm not that person anymore. I realize now neither are you… we've both changed." I said realizing I was too late.
"Yeah we have changed… I don't even know you anymore." She said sadly and I closed my eyes as I looked to the ground.
"Why her? Why did you run to her instead of me?"
"She was an escape… she was a way to let my frustrations out. I didn't know how to do that with you…I'm so sorry. I don't know what I can do to fix it but I'm going try Let… please let me try." I begged.
"Just leave Dom and don't come back."
"Letty please." I tried reaching out for her but she raised her knee yet again and I threw myself backwards in order to protect myself.
"Just leave me alone… please. That goes for all of you." she said before she slammed the door in my face. I stood there silently for a moment able to hear her still on the other side of the door. I could hear her quiet sobs and I closed my eyes as I took another step backwards and then another before I turned around and left leaving the flowers still where I sat them.
I drove a couple of hours before I realised I wasn't going to make it through the night so I stopped and checked into a cheap run down hotel for the night. I lay on the bed staring at the ceiling in thought. The room smelled musty and old like it hadn't been used in a very long time and the sheets smelt of dust but it was cheap and it wasn't like I was going to get any sleep tonight either so I continued to lay there with only the small lamp next to the bed for light.
I stayed until just before lunch the next day in the same position before I finally got up showered and then left again getting home just before three. I went straight to the local mall before I went home having come to the conclusion over night that I needed to change some things.
Getting home I walked into an empty house and went straight to the kitchen grabbing a couple of coronas before sitting at the table. I placed the small box down in front of me leaving it for a moment as I drank half my beer. Pulling out my phone and placing it on the table as I opened the other box. I'd bought another cheap phone, nothing special but I hoped it would at least help my current situation. I put the phone together and set it up before scrolling through my old contacts in my other phone one by one sorting out who I needed to keep and who I didn't. In the end I ended up with just a few names; Letty's, Mia's, the house phone, Leon', Vince's, Jesse's, Hector's, Racer's edge, the garage, the shop and Maria's. That was all I needed the rest was about to be destroyed and my new number was about to stay confidential.
I got up picking up everything I had on the table and taking it with me upstairs setting my new charger on the bed and placing my new phone in my pocket. I picked up my old charger still holding my old phone as I walked back downstairs and out the front door locking it behind me. I drove the short distance to the garage taking everything in with me as I headed straight for the office ignoring Leon and Vince. I slammed the door behind me and searched the draws for an envelope and a stamp. Finding one I scribbled Letty's address on it before picking up a scrap of paper writing a short note on it. I left them sitting on the desk as I walked out to the work shop aware that I was being watched. I hadn't noticed when I first walked in but Mia and Jesse were there too watching me silently. I ignored them and went looking for the tools I needed.
I cut the wires on the charger and placed it to the side before I took apart my old phone pulling the sim out placing it on the work bench. I pulled the rest of the old phone apart and placed it on the bench as well before picking up the hammer I grabbed slamming it down repeatedly onto the phone and sim until they were in pieces. I heard a couple of choice swear words over the noise when I first started by either Vince or Leon I wasn't sure which and I didn't care.
I hadn't realised how worked up I had gotten until I stopped and found myself breathing hard. I dropped the hammer onto the floor not caring as it clattered to the ground and under the bench somewhere as I scooped the remains of the phone and the sim into my hands. Walking back into the office I slammed the door behind me again as I picked up the envelope and placed the contents in my hand into it. I picked up the short note reading it once again before shoving it into the envelope as well then sealing it.
I'm sorry,
624-979-1820
Here's my new number if you ever need it.
Love Dom
I straightened pulling out new phone as I quickly typed Leon, Mia, Vince, Jesse and Hector a short message with my new number before I hit send. I heard four different phones go off in the work shop as I walked towards the door opening it.
"My new number, don't give it out. I'm going to post a letter." I grunted as I walked past them all no doubt leaving them all staring at me in disbelief but I didn't care. I had taken the first step to trying to make things right, the next one would be a little harder.
Vince's POV
"What the fuck just happened?" I asked confused as we watched Dom leave as suddenly as he came.
"I have no idea but was that his phone he just smashed?" Mia asked.
"I think so… he said this was his new number right?" Jesse asked.
'Yeah… I have a feeling things didn't go so well with Letty." Leon commented and we all looked at him.
"Nah you think?" I said sarcastically.
"Just an observation." He muttered.
"I think Dom's lost it… Where's he sending that?" Mia asked quietly.
"I'll take one guess." I said quietly as we all stared at the spot Dom had just left from.
Dom's POV
I drove to the nearest post box and mailed the letter. Sighing as I heard it hit the bottom of the mail box.
'Now for the next part.' I thought silently.
Pulling out my phone I found hector's number easily and hit call. I stood waiting next to the mail box as it rung.
"Dom?" he asked confused.
"Hey Hector, yeah this is my new number. I just need you to keep it to yourself though alright?"
"Yeah man that's cool… you okay brother? Leon was round the other night asking for Let, everything okay?"
"Long story… short version though I fucked up big time man and Letty's left me."
"Damn… what did you do?"
"I cheated on her… with Michelle Tran." I winced as I said her name out loud.
"Man Dom…. What were you thinking? That bitch is trouble, everybody know that. You should've known that what with high school and everything."
"Yeah I know. Listen I'm ringing about the races… I'm taking a break for a while you know? I'll still have Leon and Vince race but I need some time to try and sort this shit out with Letty."
"I think that's a good idea, we're gunna miss you racing though."
"Yeah well Let's more important."
"Glad to hear it."
"Hey and do you mind if you held the parties from now on? I seriously just need to remove myself away from temptation right now."
"I hear ya brother. It takes a lot of will power to do what you're doing man, I respect you for that."
"Thanks Hector."
"Anytime man, if you ever need anything just holler alright?"
"Yeah Hec I will, thanks brother." I said before I hung up sighing in relief. I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulder but I knew there was still a lot more to work through but at least this was a start.
"These are for you…" I said sadly as I held up the flowers and she just looked from them to me not moving. I sighed and lowered my hand looking at the ground.
"Okay I'll just leave them here." I said quietly as I sat them down on the ground next to the door.
"You haven't answered my question, what the fuck are you doing here?" she asked again this time with more anger behind her voice.
"I just wanted to explain…" I started quietly.
"I don't want to hear it. Leave." She cut me off and I just stared sadly at her.
"Let… please just let me explain. I'm not asking for your forgiveness because I don't deserve it, I know that." I whispered quietly and she made a noise of agreement.
"You're right you don't deserve it nor are you getting it. I can't believe you… after everything we've been through." She ground out staring at me.
"I know… I know. If I could take it all back I would, I never meant it but it just happened and I couldn't stop. Before I realised it I was in too far." I said to her softly, my eyes begging her silently.
"I can't even trust you anymore." She whispered and I nodded.
"I know… no one can. It hurts but I know it's my fault."
"Was it just her or were there others?" she asked suddenly and I reluctantly met her gaze so she knew I was telling her the truth.
"Just her."
"Do you still have feelings for her? Is that why you slept with her?" She demanded and I shook my head still meeting her gaze finding it almost unbearable but I knew I had to do it.
"No, I never had feelings for her. What we had years ago and what happened weeks ago was purely physical."
"Physical." She scoffed as she looked away from me for a moment before she turned back to me.
"Then what is she to you Dom?" She snapped.
"Nothing." I said truthfully.
"I don't believe you. You had me… I was your girlfriend, I was the one you were supposed to come to instead of going to that… whore. You couldn't trust me enough, that's what the issue is Dom."
"Let I do trust you. I never wanted to hurt you, all I wanted when I got out was to pick up where we left off, but I couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to be with you in any other way then how I was back then but jail changed me and I wasn't... I'm not that person anymore. I realize now neither are you… we've both changed." I said realizing I was too late.
"Yeah we have changed… I don't even know you anymore." She said sadly and I closed my eyes as I looked to the ground.
"Why her? Why did you run to her instead of me?"
"She was an escape… she was a way to let my frustrations out. I didn't know how to do that with you…I'm so sorry. I don't know what I can do to fix it but I'm going try Let… please let me try." I begged.
"Just leave Dom and don't come back."
"Letty please." I tried reaching out for her but she raised her knee yet again and I threw myself backwards in order to protect myself.
"Just leave me alone… please. That goes for all of you." she said before she slammed the door in my face. I stood there silently for a moment able to hear her still on the other side of the door. I could hear her quiet sobs and I closed my eyes as I took another step backwards and then another before I turned around and left leaving the flowers still where I sat them.
I drove a couple of hours before I realised I wasn't going to make it through the night so I stopped and checked into a cheap run down hotel for the night. I lay on the bed staring at the ceiling in thought. The room smelled musty and old like it hadn't been used in a very long time and the sheets smelt of dust but it was cheap and it wasn't like I was going to get any sleep tonight either so I continued to lay there with only the small lamp next to the bed for light.
I stayed until just before lunch the next day in the same position before I finally got up showered and then left again getting home just before three. I went straight to the local mall before I went home having come to the conclusion over night that I needed to change some things.
Getting home I walked into an empty house and went straight to the kitchen grabbing a couple of coronas before sitting at the table. I placed the small box down in front of me leaving it for a moment as I drank half my beer. Pulling out my phone and placing it on the table as I opened the other box. I'd bought another cheap phone, nothing special but I hoped it would at least help my current situation. I put the phone together and set it up before scrolling through my old contacts in my other phone one by one sorting out who I needed to keep and who I didn't. In the end I ended up with just a few names; Letty's, Mia's, the house phone, Leon', Vince's, Jesse's, Hector's, Racer's edge, the garage, the shop and Maria's. That was all I needed the rest was about to be destroyed and my new number was about to stay confidential.
I got up picking up everything I had on the table and taking it with me upstairs setting my new charger on the bed and placing my new phone in my pocket. I picked up my old charger still holding my old phone as I walked back downstairs and out the front door locking it behind me. I drove the short distance to the garage taking everything in with me as I headed straight for the office ignoring Leon and Vince. I slammed the door behind me and searched the draws for an envelope and a stamp. Finding one I scribbled Letty's address on it before picking up a scrap of paper writing a short note on it. I left them sitting on the desk as I walked out to the work shop aware that I was being watched. I hadn't noticed when I first walked in but Mia and Jesse were there too watching me silently. I ignored them and went looking for the tools I needed.
I cut the wires on the charger and placed it to the side before I took apart my old phone pulling the sim out placing it on the work bench. I pulled the rest of the old phone apart and placed it on the bench as well before picking up the hammer I grabbed slamming it down repeatedly onto the phone and sim until they were in pieces. I heard a couple of choice swear words over the noise when I first started by either Vince or Leon I wasn't sure which and I didn't care.
I hadn't realised how worked up I had gotten until I stopped and found myself breathing hard. I dropped the hammer onto the floor not caring as it clattered to the ground and under the bench somewhere as I scooped the remains of the phone and the sim into my hands. Walking back into the office I slammed the door behind me again as I picked up the envelope and placed the contents in my hand into it. I picked up the short note reading it once again before shoving it into the envelope as well then sealing it.
I'm sorry,
624-979-1820
Here's my new number if you ever need it.
Love Dom
I straightened pulling out new phone as I quickly typed Leon, Mia, Vince, Jesse and Hector a short message with my new number before I hit send. I heard four different phones go off in the work shop as I walked towards the door opening it.
"My new number, don't give it out. I'm going to post a letter." I grunted as I walked past them all no doubt leaving them all staring at me in disbelief but I didn't care. I had taken the first step to trying to make things right, the next one would be a little harder.
Vince's POV
"What the fuck just happened?" I asked confused as we watched Dom leave as suddenly as he came.
"I have no idea but was that his phone he just smashed?" Mia asked.
"I think so… he said this was his new number right?" Jesse asked.
'Yeah… I have a feeling things didn't go so well with Letty." Leon commented and we all looked at him.
"Nah you think?" I said sarcastically.
"Just an observation." He muttered.
"I think Dom's lost it… Where's he sending that?" Mia asked quietly.
"I'll take one guess." I said quietly as we all stared at the spot Dom had just left from.
Dom's POV
I drove to the nearest post box and mailed the letter. Sighing as I heard it hit the bottom of the mail box.
'Now for the next part.' I thought silently.
Pulling out my phone I found hector's number easily and hit call. I stood waiting next to the mail box as it rung.
"Dom?" he asked confused.
"Hey Hector, yeah this is my new number. I just need you to keep it to yourself though alright?"
"Yeah man that's cool… you okay brother? Leon was round the other night asking for Let, everything okay?"
"Long story… short version though I fucked up big time man and Letty's left me."
"Damn… what did you do?"
"I cheated on her… with Michelle Tran." I winced as I said her name out loud.
"Man Dom…. What were you thinking? That bitch is trouble, everybody know that. You should've known that what with high school and everything."
"Yeah I know. Listen I'm ringing about the races… I'm taking a break for a while you know? I'll still have Leon and Vince race but I need some time to try and sort this shit out with Letty."
"I think that's a good idea, we're gunna miss you racing though."
"Yeah well Let's more important."
"Glad to hear it."
"Hey and do you mind if you held the parties from now on? I seriously just need to remove myself away from temptation right now."
"I hear ya brother. It takes a lot of will power to do what you're doing man, I respect you for that."
"Thanks Hector."
"Anytime man, if you ever need anything just holler alright?"
"Yeah Hec I will, thanks brother." I said before I hung up sighing in relief. I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulder but I knew there was still a lot more to work through but at least this was a start.